I feel this eternal splitting open,
Again and again, 
In regards to space, place, and location,
This climbing spiral
That circles around and around
Attachment and transition,
Rooting and uprooting
Again and again. 
Each Rotation paving the way for 
More grace,
More openness,
More sincerity,
And therefore more vulnerability and heartbreak.
Are people still calling heartbreak weakness?
I feel stronger every time my heart is broken.
Every time it is ripped open,
I sink and settle further into my skin.
And now this heartbreak.
One I didn’t anticipate. 
One I can’t articulate.
But the longing for a 
Normal day.
Here. In this place.
That, soon, won’t be mine. 
Today, it is all mine. 
I own this space.
I have earned it.
Tomorrow, I will not.
I go into the void. 
The in between.
Confused about what is mine.
Where I belong.
Where to shop.
Who to talk about.
I have been there…
Over and over again.
Holding the tension 
Between two spaces.
Until I emerge and settle in.
But just one day….
Wondering what Jim is making for dinner,
What Nayda is wearing.
Where to ride the bike.
If it will rain. 


40 Hikes 40 Trails 2016

#18 By the Visitor Center Mt. Graham
#17 Lower Arcadia
#16 Mount Graham
#15 Soldier Creek
#14 Arcadia
#13 Top of Lady Bug Trail
#12 Chircawas
#11 Turkey Creek
#10 Bonita Springs
#9 Spring Canyon
#8 Ladybug Trail
#7 Fry Mesa
#6 Gila Box
#5 Round the Mountain Part II
#4 Soldier Trail
#3 Round the Mountain
#2 Tucson Mountain Park
#1 Ash Creek


January: Indigogo Campaign
February: Women's Funding Alliance #togetherequal
March: MVMC Moab 
May: Americans for Responsible Solutions
June: I can't remember :(
July: Same
August: Same
September: Same
October: Americans for Responsible Solutions
November: Americans for Responible solutions. I think. 
December: White Helmets


To the keepers of my heart: Happy Valentine's Day 2016

If I could
I would curl up and live
in between my hand and your tiny one.

If I could
I would cling
between my kiss and your plush cheeks.

I would hover
in the motion of your arms going up
and mine reaching down to hold you.

If I could
I would breath a million breaths
into the air
where your words "I love you" linger.


Birth Days.

wait, what? how did we get here?? 1 and 3??